5 Years

Dear Mom,

I can't believe that it's already been five years since I've heard your voice. Sometimes it seems like longer, and sometimes it seems as though it was just yesterday. So much has changed in these last five years. I am now a mother of 2 and have a house, Dad is remarried, and sadly his relationship with Jill and Jef isn't what it used to be. It really upsets me, as I'm sure it does to you too. I keep hoping things will get better between them. We went to your grave on Saturday and brought flowers. I wanted pink roses, but all they had were red. Megan helped put the flowers in the vase. I still don't quite know when and how I'm going to explain her to you. I have the last family picture we took by my bed and she points to you and says, "Grandma". I'm sure she still recognizes you from before she came. I wish that part of the veil would stay open for her and all my children. It just breaks my heart that they won't get to meet you in this life. You would have been a fantastic grandmother. I do joke to my friends that you've picked out all the cute kids to send to me. I like to think there's some sort of truth to that. We are blessing Dane this weekend. I'm sure it will be crazy with all of Eric's family and our family, but what's life for without a little crazy?! It's just going to be one of those days where I wish with all my heart that you could have been there too. I miss you mom. So, if you have a few minutes on Sunday, come and take a peek at my little growing family. I'll be watching for you...